loves me not?

i complicated to our lives,
by falling in love with him.
i complicated our lives,
now i'm losing my only friend,
i don't know why, i had to try,
living my life on the other side,
now i'm so confused,
i don't know what to do.
he loves me?he loves me not?
i start blurring the lines,
because i din't care,
i start crossing the line,
cause you never there,
no where to turn,no where to help.
it's almost like,i don't even know myself.
now i have to choose,
i don't know what to do..
he loves me not???